I tried to write today, but my head is filled with so much anger and my heart is so confused as to why I’m so angry that I crashed and burned and tried to pick myself up and put myself together but I realized that this brain is so malignant and so highly medicated that the only thing I could do was walk around all day as a cracked and punctured and bruised shell of a man that incessantly screamed until his lungs collapsed and his vocal chords burned down and his blood was dripping from between his teeth and he couldn’t believe that he believed he could actually write something today.