i still remember
the text from december

about how you wanted someone special
i gave in,
and said yes

months later
you have moved on

and i remember march 6
as clear as day.

i walked to the rooms
excited for whats to come
because i were to see
a classroom of yours

she comes running out
im sorry,
she says.
but he has moved on,
he has forgotten about you.

i saw your figure

coming down the stairs

i was struck
by lightning

you came down
and walked past me

bewildered and confused,
i walked away

and as i took my last sane steps,
my sanity slipped away

the tears rolled down my cheeks
i felt alone,
i felt lonely
left abandoned to face the harsh world
alone

it was that moment
which i lost my identity
i began to cover myself up
with fake smiles and plastic laughs

i walked back to my locker
my legs jelly, my eyes a water spout

crying silently to myself.
wondering,
why.

i laid my head on the blue door,
i remembered
that you used to come here often

after school

to come check on me
and to send me gifts

i laid my head on my locker door,
feeling the world crumble around me

the tears slipping down my cheeks
i cant stop
make it stop

that was the last day of my sanity.