Remember how you said you'd do anything as long as it made me happy? well right now I'm sad and we both know the one thing you could easily do that would make me happy again. I guess I was stupid for even believing a word you said. I could have sworn you were happy. They say you can’t lose something you never had but does that still apply to situations where you were deceived? months of you constantly saying that you loved me but as soon as things started tilting the slightest bit downhill you end everything. I never thought you had such a short fuse I thought I knew you so well and It’s scaring the living **** out of me because everything feels too real and I find myself terrified to talk to you The only reason I didn't cry was because I didn't want you to know how much it was hurting me. And seven hours later it’s still hard to breathe and think of you. I cannot wait to fall asleep and escape reality but equally I dread falling asleep because then I will have to wake up and I'll remember.