There is no bigger pain than the one you get at 4 in the morning when you suddenly wake up just to cry because it wasn't a dream.

It's been almost a month and I miss you.
I miss you saying you loved me and all those nights I went to sleep knowing I had you.
I still think about your green eyes and your deep Irish voice.

You won't see this but I want you to know, I NEED you to know that I did love you. I always will and I'm sorry I didn't appreciate you enough for you to stay.

I'm so sorry but just know that it was real. All of it. I love you and hope that maybe one day you and I can get that second shot everyone talks so much about.