you say you see my light is it behind my eyes or hidden in between my crooked teeth does it seep out through the scars littering my arms the constant paper cuts on my finger tips does it crawl out through the paper fine skin i tear off my lips or do i bite off my light when i chew my nails down to the quick does the light hide behind my cuticles and i the only reason why i can’t see them is because they are hidden by the blood of the skin being stretched back too far does my light hide in my little toes or is it hidden behind my smile the one place i wouldn’t think to look
you say you see my light and i have scoured my body fully clothed and naked as a jaybird with my failing eyes with and without my glasses sometimes being blurry is better than the harsh light of a new days reality and i want to run away but my flaws they leave a bright burning black and blue and indigo trail behind me and it pains my heart and soul to see that the brightest part of me is all of my insecurities
you say you see my light and i wonder why that is are your eyes bad as well are they as bad as mine do they see other things too like the knuckle shaped bruises the scratches from last night’s nightmares the shaking hands and the scars so many **** scars but your eyes see only beauty and i think you see it in me too though i don’t know why this is a notion i cannot conceive maybe you’re just saying that to make me feel better but i know you’re too kind to tell such a lie
you say you see my light and i can’t help but to wonder if i manage to shine even half as bright as she did but that’s selfish of me it is a terrible character flaw of mine i just want someone to see past my proverbial rain cloud and the darkness i shroud myself in though my clothes may be bright my soul and heart are dark and i just want to be a bright light like a star but instead i am like an abyss i **** all the light in and give nothing back i am a greedy boy a greedy black hole please fill me up with your light
you say you can see my light and i cried when i saw that comment don’t think that was your intended reaction but i have always been rather emotional a ***** boy a girly boy a crybaby but you say you see my light and i am trying to believe you i really am but it is so hard all these loud negative thoughts they invade my mind dance and scream and ***** me with pins behind my eyes
you say you can see my light and if i were an angel all my grace would have run out i pour my light into other people and keep none for myself i am a burnt out husk but you still make me feel beautiful please i beg of you take your weathered old hands and pry open my eyelids make me see the light help me to look in a mirror and not hate what i see help me to see my light i want to see it
you say you can see my light and i am trying my hardest to believe you