I said today I feel like a shadow of myself… dark and empty.
Just an outline of the person I used to be.
Hiding from the sun’s embrace
Following behind…
Pressed against a wall…
My soul’s walking over me
A black void in place of my smile
A black void in place of my frown
A black void in place of my spirit
A black void… I have become
There are days that I cry
Without reason or provoke
I am so numb… I don't feel the pain
But every now and then
It sweeps over me, like a gust of wind
I have thoughts but the words don’t come.
They linger on the tip of my tongue…taunting me to speak.
But I’m much too tired to let them escape.
A black void in place of my thoughts
A black void in place of my feelings
A black void in place of my mind
A black void… I have become
Praying for someone to save me from my darkness…
Wanting for the sunlight to touch my cheek
Warming my soul… breaking this hold
Making me feel whole again
Staring at my reflection… knowing that my savior stands before me.
Only she can pull me out of this shadow back into the sun.
But is she too far gone?
A black void in place of my hopes
A black void in place of my dreams
A black void in place of my heart
A black void… I have become