My Mother's face beams pixilated and irreverent thoughts flood my brain gazing down my legs too long my ******* too large his smile is a symphony before fire and rage and I, I am sanguine, just behind the deceit and pain of her protrusive smile
My shoulders are too wide, bear too much These eyes know far more than hers from a distance - could be alive and so could she not as now - no, I cannot fathom that but as was - captured flickering like my memory of her before it all went wrong
I search reluctant for what small glimpses the machine might offer Her name here, not mine anymore but anotherβs settles lead through my veins screaming NO wrong so gone that this picture is foreign could be prepackaged in frames for convenient selling
I know his grin as my own and that sweater was my favorite but is foreign too as my thighs and toes and trailing smoke are to her But beaming, I yearn for what I cannot have forsaken with one hand while I clawed out my heart with the other