sitting on the toilet taking a **** because there is no nice way to say i am emptying my body of the garbage that i have shoved into my gaping maw of a mouth today tonight it’s dark out but i’m not sure what time it is everything is blurry my eye is gummy i can feel the staples pulling out when i blink in and out they stick and unstick a timeless rhyme but ****** i saw the vanity scissors through the slit in the back of the drawer and i thought of taking them to my wrists and throat and thighs and arms wondered how sharp they would be didn’t care what was caked on them i just wanted to let out this demon smoke trapped under my skin it tries to seep out through my mouth but gets caught between my teeth maybe that’s why they have a faint greyish tinge to them the red lining isn’t gums anymore it is simply self hatred and destruction and the skin of this innocent girl that i use to floss my teeth with because you must keep fangs razor sharp when all you have is nubs for finger tips and my toes are useless cuz all they do is crack and splinter and bleed my fingers fly across the keyboard but not fast enough falling behind slipping on the trail of spilled ink a purple and pink and red and orange and cotton candy blue mess running down my thighs all i bleed now is a broken string of i am so ******* sorry