" do you know how dangerous it is to have a mind like yours and a soul like yours ? that **** will bring people to their knees "
Alexis-Rae said this to me 46weeks ago, just a little less then a year ago, thinking about her words and how positive and beautiful my words, my poetry was back then how I once had fallen for someone so deeply that she could do no wrong and she was every bit of the word serendipity, how I believed in balloons and all that really fairytale oriented analogies, I think of this and wonder where that person went, I see her in the mirror everyday when I wake up but she's hidden herself with a gray facade of hideous lies, she spews truth but wallows so deep into this new being she has become and has grown, she's grown enough to see and call out ******* as it comes her way but we always go back to what we're accustomed to and still I see the beauty in the girl I am so deeply in love with, I still think of her when I see flowers growing need I remind you it's winter and it's cold but the warmth emitted from her aura, the raw emotion she has brought to my life, baby i cannot and will not leave you, you may hurt me and i may say the wrong things at times but this ? us ? I'd like to believe that I still believe in forever , I believe in forever with you, this poem was supposed to be about me and how I've grown but you have become a part of me, a part of me I do not want to part with, if you were to walk away, I'd wither away and cease to exist, we're in a rocky place but I still believe in being the calm that comes after a storm, grant me the pleasure of being your cradle, you weren't there but rock-a-bye baby let me sing you a lullaby and lay your head on my chest and fall into a deep sleep where you wake and the first name you say is mine and I look into your eyes as if you were, you are the light, the light I want to fall into not the never ending abyss I've fallen into. I digress , I love you Reane, I love you...a thousand times I do. Alexis, thank you for the kind words.