It was never about how you made me feel
It was about pretending that I was happier than I was
It was about how I felt intellectually supreme when I took a drag of your cigarette and stared out onto the ocean.

It was never about my attraction to you
It was about being a more sexually liberated college girl
It was about pretending and wishing that I could handle being unattached

It was never about being with you
It was about Far Far Away being so close
It was about feeling different than how I wished I wasn't perceived