Even though you left I think I'm the one whose suffering from loneliness
Each breath I exhale burns like I'm running out of oxygen
I carry a weight around but I'm not sure what it is exactly
is it the memories or who I was supposed to be?
I can't find an answer, not even sealed in a kiss
I thought I believed in true love but this can't be it
The confusion blurs my vision and I ask everyone to speak twice
because I can't see the small details I appreciated once in life
Everything seems to rehearsed and predictable
I want some pain that at least I can control
I am used and unwanted I wish I could burn this shell to the ground
My body is aching for abuse because it has no reason now
my mind is screaming at me but all you hear is silence
I can't even die right, what a coincidence
I wish I could say I am nothing but that is not the case
I am a failure, a betrayal, I am my worse mistakes
I want to be free from the prison that is my own mind
the cell walls are my flesh I can cut bars into any time
Where is the happiness I was once promised?
Why is the world so ******* dishonest.