I'm bad

I want to inhale deeply
breathe you into my lungs
like ashy, chalky, abrasive smoke

(you're gorgeous)

like cashmere
chardonnay
like blue cologne
kiss kiss
xoxo
kiss of
champagne

I don't know if
I love you
or if I love
the thought of
love

but I'm so far gone
I'm so far down
the rabbit hole
of needing you
and being
downright bad

I'll breathe you in
then out again
all with a cigarette
in my hand