a tiredness overcomes me that is deeper than love
and duller than feeling
I am not sleeping
I have not slept
         and yet I do not think of sleep
         so what do I think of?
I think of love and warmth but my veins are cold and
sticking out of my hands in a disgusting way that bothers me
quite extensively.
I want to get a surgery to get rid of all the veins in my
body, can I do that?
if you know a doctor please refer me.