my mother she makes my teeth chatter she gives me chills and not the good kind all down my spine a roiling in the pit of my stomach right in the middle of my being i can feel her there sinking teeth and claws into my tender flesh she so easily rips me aside tears me asunder i just want her to be proud of me but i’ve forgotten how to be loveable i don’t know how to make her proud of me it is a losing battle when she doesn’t even love or accept me i don’t know what to do she stomps on my fragile psyche she makes me want to die i just need selfishly want my mother to love me why can’t why won’t she love me