I know you teach your children the importance of forgiving and forgetting without holding grudges yet this time its hard for me to do.
After all the sacrifices i made, after the countless time i gave in and just went with it because i was mind. I guess God what im trying to say is that im pretty sure you were the one in my ear saying dead weigh dead weigh & now that i adding 1 plus 1 im finally getting the answer. My eyes are finally opened no more time wasted. I apologize for abandoning you. I know you never have or will abandon me, but its hard when you do right by everyone and at the end of the day its like one, they dont appreciate what you have done and two, it feels like some either throw it back in your face or do some **** ***** ****. Its razy how you have a friend and you do the most for them and then you turn your back and they take from you after allowing them into your spot the same ***** you smoke with almost every other day. Someone once said that everyone cant go where your going in life and i see people dropping like flies year by year. God i just loose faith some times because its like your created me in your perfection and i strive at least when it comes to getting your will done and when you look to the left and look to the right and you see complacency. All you hear is talk of this and talk of that but no work is being down no outreach or what is done is done at a half a pace. I get frustrated because people dont put in the effort required to get the job done