i stand in the sea with a gaping hole in my soul and a mind eroded because of addiction memories are ashes vanishing in our midst collecting beneath me there is a nest of insecurities inside my mind that i run from you could have kept me away from the rain because of the despair it caused my childhood was my prison hollow and painful these feelings would die inside my heart beside your memories i could never find the right words to say to you i could see your lips moving eyes staring hard i would fade away i could feel your affection yet there was something colder than your tears corroding inside me that made you look away i had to let go of your hand and forget everything we had now i stand ageless upon your grave smelling the sea trying to forget you even though i love you the damage will always wash ashore inside my heart where you stand still to this day waiting for me