It fell down on me like cold steel
thin, piercing, passing through my heart and skin
making my tears come out
following the path of gravity
feeling heavy as they crash with the floor.

I remember how sweet and yellow it all seemed
bright and energetic
filling my everyday with smiles and dreams
my veins with sugar and butterfly wings.

But then the confusion started
heavy and yet like a game
playing with my heart and mind
the same way a labyrinth plays with one'sense of freedom.

And afterwards I just felt it all slipping away
slowly and somewhat gently and quiet
cold and indifferent yet purging
as if filling me with a void
filling me with hunger
only to be fed hopeless poison.

Oh life, I really loved you and cherished you
with those childish eyes I still look at you
but also with the eyes of a confused and skeptical teenager
lost and hurt at the sight of you.
How could you give me my first heartbreak this way?