the thought of someone elses lips against yours makes me sick to my stomach. i cannot fathom the mental torture it would put me through if i found out whos finger tips trailed your pale torso. it would tear my stability limb from limb and leave me utterly and pathetically alone. every night i set a fire in my head thinking about you. i shed unwanted tears until im physically weak. i love you more than anything in the world, this including myself. when you fall in love, i know it wont be with me.. and that destroys every cell in my body. i want nothing more than for you to be happy but i am a selfish human being and i want to be the only reason why you smile. im more than in love with you, -. its really sad and pathetic, i know. but this flame at the pit of my stomach burns for you and it will not die and that is the pathetic truth.