is crooning bird with beehive nest built from soul is sixty five years inside body of young girl loves jazz and destructive boy looks at him the way her voice does microphone eyes are drawn black like cat's and she sings the way a tail curls along wood floor graceful effortless confident
shaina maidel with a gap between her two front bent teeth echoed laugh and studded diamond above her lip jewish girl who wears star of David around her neck belts songs she writes with scratching fingers against ink covered arms pretty girl loves ****** and crack pipe and liquor has a crooked mouth but hums melodies smooth as the heart is aching
pink ballet slippers stain red from ****** between toes bulimia makes a home in her habits empties stomach after every meal makes more room for wine and ***** and whisky with coke stumbles across a stage she does not belong to while the audience boos and mocks while the paparazzi stalks and preys and while the media criticizes and a world that doesn't quite understand does the same
we watch her disaster like a car accident unable to stop staring at the damage we watch her downfall like an avalanche in another city it isn't ours so we do nothing to save it
this disappearing act is not magic but a side effect of fame unwanted dad doesn't understand that skin and bones is foreshadow of death says, baby, smile for the camera baby, just do what you're supposed to baby, just finish the tour **** every last ounce out of her like the wringing of a towel it is an easy thing for a girl to become invisible when she wants to enough
crooning bird falls from tree and we watch with hands at our side bodies tilted in confusion what a shame, we say there is depth but it is hiding under addiction all we see is girl destroying herself under the fluorescents we placed above her what a waste, we say, shaking heads we do nothing in response
my love, you tore boundaries with your swollen hands they said your honest was too loud hair too big voice too bold they picked with curious fingers and gap-tooth jew girl with the audacity to break silence ended up breaking too
shaina maidel with a space between her two front bent teeth echoed laugh and studded diamond above her lip jewish girl who could never be a star became just that burned into supernova graceful effortless confident in her descent back to black