a smoky melody plays inside my heart, bits and pieces, a note or two given by a friend, a shared experience, a lover gave me a measure, tragedy supplied a blues refrain, and i spent years trying to find the hook, that part you can't get out of your head but have to sing over and over, like a skip in the vinyl. and just when i think i find it, something new and unexpected comes along and changes the tune, until at last it will simply be my life, set to the music i love.