Just one last time
I wanted to make things right…
I never do it
Like I do it in my mind
Oh, just one single time
Just wanted to do it right
But there’s always a fight…
I hope I’ll do it right one day

I’ll,
See you in heaven
See you in hell
Every day I’m alive is a day that ain’t so well
I wish I could fix every mistake I made
I wish I could just take away the pain

And why
Oh, I don’t know why
It makes me want to cry
Every day I want to die
And why
A million and more times
I just can’t do it right
I’ll fix it all one day

When’d
Ya learn I’m not alright?
That I can’t even go a night
Without screaming out in pain

Oh
I’ll do it all myself
Cause I ain’t got nobody else
I wish I could say I did

I wish
I wish I had a life
One that would inspire
One that I’d be proud to show today
Not this one I’d give away

****, I’ve got this restless mind
Won’t give me any time
I just want to go away

I’d
Give my life
If I knew I’d make a difference
I’m tired of being a lie
I’d die
A thousand and more times
If I could just see her smile
Before the pain takes me away

And I hate myself
And everything I’ve ever done
I’m tired of these stupid songs
I’m tired of myself

I
Can’t even be myself
Liking men sets me apart from everything else
I’m glad I can lie today

I hope that no one else
Will ever know this pain
Cause it’s driving me insane
Seeing shadows all the time
All the ****** time

And when I want to end myself
I know it won’t change anybody else
But I feel so selfish not doing enough
Doing enough for all the other ones
The ones I love so much
I hope they love me in return