i thought i knew pain before. you know, a relative passes away; you get our heart broken. you get used abused, hurt. the usual stuff: and you were sure that was pain. but no.
(family member passes away, an al that. normal pain. an i really thought i knew..)
i thought i knew pain. but seeing someone in their prime become a ******* vegetable. seeing your friend go home in bits and pieces shoved in a bodybag, the carrying on with business as usual. being tossed head first into a hell hole where eeryone wants you dead.
(seein the fittest lad in the corp become a fuckinvegetable. goin on with biz as usual after ur mate is sent home in bits n pieces thrown in a body bag.)

its not a normal kind of pain because its unnatural. theres no recovry; no great lesson to be learned from it. its exactly what you come to feel life is after yu feel it: utterly meaningless