I thought it was my life
Building and tearing down out of strife
I thought you loved in another way
But I think it’s better today
And even though it hurts a lot
I can bear the pain

If the world’s at large,
Why should I remain?
But I can’t leave my town
And it’s so hard to change these ways
But I’ll still float on,
Won’t you understand?

I know I’m not making the most
My mind, it feels like I’m a ghost
I need something to make me feel a little less insane
Even though I’m not in the ocean,
I’m still in this undertow

I thought I was out of my mind
But why are you in it all the time?
I wish I could act like I didn’t care
But I don’t wanna be a liar anymore
So I lay on this wooden floor
Trying to drink away the part of the day that I cannot sleep away

That’s no way to live
They always say the things I hate to hear
****, it’s a sin to be this queer
I try to be good
I try to do things right
I always to seem to end up in a fight
I never wanted to lie
I never wanted you to make me cry

Why can’t I just live my life?
I always seem to be full of lies
I don’t wanna tell them to you
I stopped, that’s true
I’m sorry for all that stuff I did
I didn’t mean it when I said I hated you
I hope you were lying too

Can’t even be myself
Not like my parents help
‘Always here for you’ that much is true
But it’s the bad things they always seem to do
Give me help?
No, just make me depressed
Love myself?
No, I’m just a *****
Tell you I’m gay,
You tell me I can’t feel that way
I guess I’m just stuck in sin