my head can be filled with red clouds with electric sparks in every corner of my skull with words floating about my conscience and sentences twisting around my brain it causes ripples in my psyche other times, my head is empty my skull is incapable of breaking, my brain unable to acknowledge pain and my cloudy mind condenses into rain that trickles down to my lungs I feel numb and unemotional I feel tired and unchallenged until the clouds form again and words wrap around my nerves
a few words are pulled together as if by a magnetic, chemical force and i wonder: Is it better to feel everything or nothing at all?