Let me be yellow, as the sunbeams that tickle faces leaving behind freckle kisses while still possessing the pain of a stinging burn to those who get too greedy
Joy in the morning, fresh breeze in your lungs a delightful hope
am i pretty? do you like what you see? heaven forbid the idea of me be only a mirage that flirts with contentment and encourages complacency
my wings are charcoal, crisp and fierce like the fear that plagues enchanted sleep stealing security questioning everything
crimson brushes my lips to mark a bold passion that lacks not in authentic yearnings for truth and empowerment
still waters peak my curiosity and yearn for my touch, a fall and i'm in too deep chaotic abyss is destined for me a labyrinth that forces me to swim as i sink drowning me so i can breath
my crown was broken between hotel sheets a little girl looks up crying, "why was this destined for me?"
a slap caressed my cheek so soft and so sweet that is was almost endearing
"stop crying." he says "don't blame me." "i couldn't help myself." "look, you're just too beautiful."
strip me to my nakedness of which i am ashamed no more
my skeletons come dancing out of the closet and i kiss them as they embrace me because i have learned to love things that are *****
complexity divine and ever-changing wrestle with the heaven and hell that reside in me my already torn heart is done breaking
the extreme capacity to share love and harbor hate both demonstrate the tragedy in being merely too human.
But oh, how He loves me so.
This is my first poem i'm really proud of. It really grasps who i am and what happened to me and how i choose to keep pressing on despite it all. But i try my best to honest, that i am not perfect in this. Forgiveness is a journey, and i am no expert on living. But hey, i am trying.