when at last i shall sleep,
and take my leave of this life,
this strange existence of pains and torments,
and brief periods of rest between them,
i shall look back upon it all,
and wonder at the brilliant mosaic
formed from the choices i made,
the things i did,
the people i loved,
and the difference i have made for them,
and what they have done for me,
and i will find the happiness i seek.