What am I going to do when this is a real thing.
When I'm forced to notice you aren't there.
That you're never coming back.
I'm in so much pain.
So much fear and anxiety.
I just want to know you're going to come back this fall.
That you're not actually going away forever.
You're my best friend.
I don't understand.
I don't want to imagine this without you.
I'm terrified that I know you won't show up.
How is it that I'm never going to see you again.
It just hit me and I feel like I'm dying on the inside.
God please help I'm so afraid.
I still love you so much.
We were supposed to be together every night.
Waking up with one another in the morning.
But everything we talked about isn't happening because you left me.
And you won't ever be back.