The dream that I want
The dream that I want
The dream that I see
No one else shares.
Does anyone else see?
I searched to my pain, I have had it!
Are the things portrayed
That I believe,
Remain still pictures untouched from this harsh reality?
I think the total truth would hurt too much
Far and far being away from which all my happiness seems possible
Always too far
Am I too young to hope for love?
I would hold her close and seize off weary eyes
And clinging hands.
I would surrender all in face of fear
Just so long as love was near.
Just so long, but no one else thinks my thoughts
My hopes are mine
Would remain in time.

Friendship as it drags its cold nail through my back
And into my heart, my open heart
Too open, too confused, too open
And infects, drives in and consumes with pain and hurt.
Takes control, fills my brain,
I go insane.
I cannot think,
Open your eyes, and you might see.
Open your mouth, and you might speak.
I end all
None like me
That is why it hurts.
Maybe I won't ever be near,
Too far to tell
Too far to know is my life really hell

I saw her tears,
I am sorry.
I am so sorry.
Be good
Be safe
Be you,
The beauty I could only dream.
I saw you, but I am not seen.
I want to give for you a hope
Wish of mine,
Wish so hard,
I love you so dear and so close,
But so far away it seems.
So now where light goes,
And a dozen grey clouds.
I am sorry for you not love,
Not to be,
But you and never for me.
I cannot tell
I will not speak,
For hurt upon a flower,
A flame would burn too close.
I would not
I do not wish,
For harm that is to shine or sing a happy place.
It is gone for you,
But remains total love and lust,
So bare,
So there,
I will not destroy your happy place.