I am feeling sick of your **** and just waiting for no reason.
And I should probably just give up, today.
I should start from today.
I should just leave you behind.
I should convince my heart to do so.
My heart, listen..
(She is not coming back, she is not the same person you knew before, she is not the person you loved.. Just leave her.. She is not coming back and if she came back she will control you. She will make you live in hell. She will order you on purpose to do things you cannot do or accept. She will use her force.. She will never listen to you and she will leave again & again & again..  Little heart, you cannot tolerate all of this from her, you don't need to erase her, just FORGET, force yourself to do so, think less and give up.. Let her go, little heart.. Let her go. She is not meant to be for you... She is not herself.. She is someone you don't know.. Please little heart just listen to myself's brain.. Just stop torturing the soft you.. She is not your love anymore, she is just a stranger, she left you in minutes, she broke your heart millions times, she made myself feel like **** and not worthy.. Why do you hold on? Let her go...)
3:27am.