Jul 2015
I couldn't hold myself..
I cried in front of my mother like a little kid over a very silly thing.
It's not the silly thing that made me cry at 4:16 am. It's you..
I tend to keep all my emotions inside and hide it away from people until I break down over something that is not even worth it.
I try not to show how weak I am because of you. I try to pretend I am happy and fine. I try to be calm or sometimes even angry. But until now, I didn't find a way to not break down over you.
Sometimes I just watch an episode, a movie, some khaleeji series that I started watching because of your obsession over them and a scene of lovers walking side by side shows up on the screen. From inside I cry a bit, I remember when I used to hold your hand so tight.. so tight to the point the I feel the warmth of it.. I remember how I used to be so close to you.. The feeling of being safe in the arms of someone I truly and with all my heart (love). And as I do, I find myself tearing up as if I am crying on the scene, secretly I cry over you babe.. I cry over the time that I cannot bring back..
I cried in front of my mother like a little kid over a very silly thing.
It's not the silly thing that made me cry at 4:16 am. It's you..
I tend to keep all my emotions inside and hide it away from people until I break down over something that is not even worth it.
I try not to show how weak I am because of you. I try to pretend I am happy and fine. I try to be calm or sometimes even angry. But until now, I didn't find a way to not break down over you.
Sometimes I just watch an episode, a movie, some khaleeji series that I started watching because of your obsession over them and a scene of lovers walking side by side shows up on the screen. From inside I cry a bit, I remember when I used to hold your hand so tight.. so tight to the point the I feel the warmth of it.. I remember how I used to be so close to you.. The feeling of being safe in the arms of someone I truly and with all my heart (love). And as I do, I find myself tearing up as if I am crying on the scene, secretly I cry over you babe.. I cry over the time that I cannot bring back..
