overtime i think i began to understand something
being alone wasn't the best thing for me
just for me
just because i began to think about things
and i began to wonder about things
and honestly, i drove myself to insanity each time the walls were closed around me
and my brain
it had the chance to do it, so it did
it's such a big part of me that i literally couldn't live without
it's something that i trusted and i truly cared about it
it did so much good for me, but at the same time..
i dont know
honestly, i'm just writing random words down that mean something to me and that make sense
im so glad im not alone anymore
i don't want to go back
i really, really dont
without this one person, i wouldn't be here, and that's crazy that a human being like yourself can do something like that
i don't rely on him for my life or anything,
he just made being alone being comfortable
honestly, im comfortable
he changes definitions and twists my mind around to a better place, and that's something that will have remembered all throughout my years, with or without him
he's my best friend
i can trust him, i really, really can
my love for my life now hasn't even passed the stages of youth, neither has my admiration for this one person
he's changed so much
i've changed so much

thank you
i love you