-Joelena Saldana
11/12/14
Where am I? One minute I'm happy, I'm here, I'm safe. The next I'm paranoid, their eyes find me and they lie still. Why do they reach me? Why do they watch?
No, not the attention. Please don't watch me. Their eyes are still locked on me, I want to run, but where to go? I'm lost, I don't know where I'm going, I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know what I am.
They wait, attention on me. What do they wait for? What are they expecting? My life is stuck, I am at a halt. What am I doing? Where am I going? Who am I? What am I? What do they expect from me?
All I do is give and give and give. Not once have they asked for me. Not once have they wondered... Not once have they wondered, not once have they questioned what will happen to me. I give and give.
I beg of thee, please, notice me without having to be told. See me so I am visible.
I am not good nor bad. I am not a hero nor a villain. I am no fairy godmother nor a wicked step-sister. I am here as me.
I give everything, but take nothing. It get's under my skin. I want to take, but can't be greedy.
See me... See me...
What do you want? What do you ask for? Why have their eyes been stuck on me? Why do you watch me?
I am lost. I'm a fish on land. I am a young woman caged in a man's world.
Find Me!
Find Me!

I want them to find me. - I take.