come sit next to me.
I won't bite, I promise.
Turn towards me,
look me in the eye,
show me something that I can hold on to.
I'm grasping for anything to tell myself that I am alright,
that you are beside me.
I reach and feel nothing,
did I do something wrong?
Do you find me repugnant?
Did I hold on too tight?
I'm sorry,
I've done this before,
ask for too much (while getting nothing at all)
pushing and pulling
pushing even harder
searching searching searching
for anything at all.
It's alright,
just sit down next to me.
I've changed my mind,
I don't need anything at all.
Just the feeling of your body near mine is enough

(for now)