No one ever gave it a chance to try to understand why I overthink too much, through hell and back, I still admire myself for staying strong. Working on myself trying to better who I am, you hear me but you don't feel me, my actions are something you might never understand. No one was ever there, being alone is all I know. Pregnant, dropout, ******, is what they said my life would be, but it's not the way I will allow things go. Understand that I have goals, I demand respect. Loyalty is what I live by, my mind is never mislead, so whatever you give me; is what in return you will get. Understand. It's not about relating to me, or else I'd be misunderstood. Just don't fail to recognize all the hard work I put in to make it out the hood. In order to understand why I'm isolated at times, you'd have to know that I grew up always being pushed to the side. I don't understand how he made me fall in the most beautiful simple way, in return I wanna prove that I'm not like the other girls who lied. Everybody has their own experiences, which makes them look at certain situations in a different way. Until I'm able to show off to the world the boy who owns my heart, I wait anxiously as I cross off my calendar another, and another, and another day. Understand that although I make a lot of mistakes, they've made me the person that I am today. With no guidance, I conquered my childhood alone, facing different problems, overcoming difficult situations, with no one to turn to when I was being consumed by loneliness. Don't know when the day will come, when I can  understand why things happened the way they did, but I know it is. Every day I assure myself into understanding that something good will come from the bad. I try to ignore the negative thoughts that emerge when it's 3:00 a.m and I'm contemplating about the days when I was once all I had. Understand. Open your mind and let my thoughts sink in deep as you put yourself in my shoes and feel the numbness my heart contains. Understand how it's hard to trust someone after all the betrayals by trusting too much that my mind sustains. After all the pain that I've been through, I realized how empty inside I am, you need to understand why I carry myself the way I do. I hold so much anger because growing up I had nobody to depend on, I was always on my own. I just need him to understand that I've been let down my whole life, I'll always be his back bone. By understanding why I am who I am, understand why I feel lucky and fortunate to have my boo. Understand why I never question his actions, and at the end of the day, I realize I'm not the only one who's lucky, cause he has me too.