because my leg won't stop bouncing repeatedly against the chair
because my thoughts revert back to the memory of your touch
every
three
seconds
like closing my eyes and tapping my heels together
because you never understood what i meant when i told you
that there wasn't a reason as to why I grew anxious in
your presence why my breaths shortened or my my
jaw tightened why my muscles ached and my head
throbbed and pounded and my cheeks turned scarlet
why i felt like you were water and my skin melted when you brushed it
i was not blushing due to your charm although i do that too
i was not nervous and biting my nails because you thought i was cute
although im not even sure if that's true

sometimes i get freaked out and its not because of you
even if you wish that were the case not everything,
not bicycles or cows
not the world or my nerves
revolves around you
or your pinky finger
only my hormones head and heart do
because
there's no place like home
there's no place like home
there's no place like him