Thank you for sticking around as long as you did,
you honestly surprised me,
most wouldn't have lasted this long.
Thank you for being real,
and not saying words you didn't mean.
I know it was hard for you.
Dealing with someone like me, is not an easy task,
but you told me that this is what you wanted.
I believed you, but I always knew what was coming.
I know that after awhile with me,
it becomes to hard to bare,
it becomes to much for anyone to stand.
I always knew you weren't strong enough,
but still,
thank you,
thank you for teaching me to smile,
thank you for teaching me how to actually deal with things,
instead of pushing them away and acting like they never existed.
I wish you'd done this a different way,
a face to face talk,
or even over text would've been nice.
I'm not okay with the fact that you just stopped talking to me,
but I get it.
I get it because every time you looked at me,
smiled at me,
hugged me,
kissed me,
there was this sense of sadness,
and a sense of things you needed to say,
but clearly couldn't.

The fact that I saw this coming doesn't make it hurt less.
So I will continue, making a fool of myself, and rambling on,
about senseless things, and of course, I WILL be drunk the whole ******* time.