there's no one who's more afraid of commitment and falling than me, but I let go of all that **** for you. I was terrified that we weren't gonna work out, but I wanted to give it a shot anyway. why the **** couldn't you let go of your **** for me? am I not a strong enough reason? am I just not good enough? ****. I understand you're not happy but I could've ******* changed that. we could've been great. but you didn't give us a ******* chance to be anything more than a pathetic excuse for a couple... or whatever we were. you said I didn't let you in but in reality you always kept me at arms length, and sometimes further. I'm ******* through with this ****. but why does it feel like a part of me is missing? why does it feel like I can't ******* breathe anymore? like I'm missing something so important that I can't stop thinking about it.