so yesterday. they
            told me about
this thing-
                  -ADD. it's
-weird.
-people who have it    are weird
                          they told me
i've got it;
i'm weird.
i don't feel weird
or at least-           i didnt
                             'till yesterday
but i'm the same as i've always been


it's    complicated. i'm not
     hyper
(or stupid or lazylike i've always though i was)
it's called 'inatten
                                 tive' adhd

thetruthisI'mnormal
but i forget stuff
but i can't concentrate
but i can't study
and i zone out
and i daydream
                             and it all sounds so normal.

but i wish
   it were a matter of
                        willpower
             and getting organised
and getting my ****
                                  together
like my parents tell me to.

wish i could convince them
    it's not some alien religion
i'm not stupid or lazy or- "what the hell is
adhd. that's
                                just an excuse
getyourshit                                              together."

yeah, alright. i know.
i try.