I get it now
I'm sorry it took me so long
Maybe it was just my denial
A small suppressed hope
That even if for just a second
You cared for me
I always thought our feelings were just unequal
Yet I was so wrong
Because I loved you
And you never felt anything for me
nothing other than convenience
You were selfish
not like a man with the greed of money
But more of a child unwilling to share his toys
I'm just a toy to you
One you don't care about anymore
Yet one you're not willing to give up
I don't regret loving you
It was an experience
One I would not repeat
But necessary life experience
But that is why you don't understand
Why I still care if you get hurt
And why I took so long to understand why you were so willing to hurt me
Believing you hated me
And enjoyed causing me pain
Yet that was my own over thinking
In the end it was quite simple
I loved you and still want good things for you
You saw me as an object
you would rather see me broken
before seeing me happy without you
It's okay
You'll learn
Everyone can be happy