It's my first day of high school this should be great.. my middle school life wasn't so good I know I'm over weight and I'm not the best looking ******* the block but I'm nice and these are all new people so this should be a different experience.

My first day was terrible everyone made fun of my hair and even the fact that one of my teeth were crooked... maybe tomorrow will be better...

1 month later...October

Nothings changed other than the fact that I have just been diagnosed with depression.. maybe I just need to chill out...Everyone is still making fun if my looks especially my weight..

2 months later December

I couldn't wait for break to come around everyone's bullish is just getting worse I stopped eating so I could lose a little weight and now I can't even look at food without being discusted with myself..

2 weeks later January
I went back to school after break I've lost some weight but I'm looking kind of pale and sickly..my sleeves slid up some during 4th period and a girl saw and pointed it out and everyone started calling me a freak /.\ I feel even worse about myself... I don't even feel like I belong on this world anymore...

4 days later..
I slipped up and ate a slice of pizza. I went to the bathroom to throw it up... I'm not allowing myself to eat if I eat I'll gain more weight... fat is hidioues skinny is beautiful.. atleast that's what tv says...

1 month later February
It's valentine's day and this guy from school asked me up maybe things are finally looking up for me this is great!!!

Later that day
I CAN'T BELIEVE WHAT HE DID. He stood me up the texted me that he would never be with a fat pig like me...

That night
I was looking in the mirror and I've gained weight I can't believe this I must really be getting fatter I thought I was losing weight.  /.\

Next day
I didn't even go to school I never wanna go back it's the worst place ever I don't even wanna see that boy who called me a fat.

That night
I can't sleep
the worrying of going back that hell hole is keeping me up
I can't eat because that means I'll gain weight
I can only just sit in my room and cry and look forwardto the day I die.. I just cut myself and hurt myself because it makes the bigger pain go away even if it's just for a day..

6 weeks later March
I just got out of the psychiatric unit because I tried to overdose on medicine.... I really want to die because it's not worth living in this effed up world that does nothing but bring me down.

Week later
I went back to school and everyone started calling me names and saying I was a freak and crazy and pycho. And they didn't want to be near me because I might try to **** them then **** myself...

That night
I can't do it anymore I get an anxiety attack by just thinking about going to school I just can't do it I can't live in this world anymore..

Midnight
I was listening to this song and It really made me realize what I wanted to say as my final words...

All those kids at school were right..I'm worthless..stupid..and I can't do a thing right. I know I'm ugly and fat. I'm in pain all the time, I'm depressed. I can't take it no more I'm a wreck...I just hope you can forgive me mom. All those kids at school made me feel worse about myself. I had no friends and everyone picked on me about everything about me...the beat me up almost everyday and no one cared enough to help... no one reached out.. I was just the ugly fat cow who made made a fool of herself everyday. I just hope you'll remember me for our good times and the fun things we did together. You always called me an angel well maybe I'm just an angel that wants to go home...Well I have to go I'm running out of space to right and my hands are trembling so back... I just hope you could forgive me..Mom you were the only one there for me I don't want you to feel this was your fault I just couldn't take it anymore...
Goodbye

1 am
She dragged the chair to the attic, she tied the rope around the beam, and she put the noose around her neck and on the count of three she took the leap...