You said that you had forgotten.
So I laughed and said me too,
But I hadn’t.
I still remember every inside joke.
I remember every time you made me smile, laugh.
You were my brother, my best friend.
Now I’m in the background.
Just a person from the past,
From a time you no longer want to remember.
So you forgot,
Or at least you say you did.
So I play along,
Like it doesn’t hurt,
I’ll wait until I’m alone,
Then I’ll cry, screaming, and asking
Did I ever really matter?
I can’t ask you without crying,
So when they ask me if I remember,
I’ll laugh and say no,
But I’ll watch your face to see if it hurts.
Then I’ll know.
If you ever really cared.
Until then, I will become numb,
Like you.