At this point, everything is a shader grey. A sadder colour, A harder line. Nothing really matters And I am constantly depraved. For I have voices in my head, That won't shut up for a minute. Or maybe they are surrounding me, Crushing me against the walls, Telling me what I truly am. As I live farther along in this Demented journey most praise, I wonder why I haven't allowed The sour taste of pills The silky texture To pierce my stomach And collapse my hope. My mother told me again, How angry I make her. How my presence is unwanted How I already know this through. My loved ones are carved to The side of me With faces of mockery. I had the life I wanted, All at one moment I went from Elation to depredation. And all I wish is, To be able to cut each ribbon Of my brain from The inner cracks of my skull And bury my memories far away.
**** this, **** everything. I can't even find it in my heart to write anymore.