I am here with all the extra legs I hate, perched above the spider web my life has so cleverly created. And ******* it, I'm in an open doorway, I'm watching the ones I love fly this way. While I am here in such a perfect place to entangle the good with the bad, to mix the living with the prey. Is this really a life? Working hard on something so strong that can be caught in a breeze and be gone. I am here with a web, and every one of you. I want to believe in surviving without tangles and traps, to write to you about how I feel without holding back. But ******* it, I'm not Charlotte. No warning signs from shiny thread will make me honest. No, no, no, I don't want to. I will never have enough time to weave you a message in some invisible writing before this doorway is no longer mine.