another attempt at this this soliloquy oh, hello I haven't realized you were there my feelings are everywhere I ponder of decadency curses, blank verses my idiocy worthless wander for that drop of sanity restrictions soon born from nonsense jurisdiction thoughtless truths aspired from fiction try desperately to wade through diction to carry my weight to wade through all this hate crates beaten blind too straight a compass to identity I need to find my way I cannot possibly begin to say how astray we are from amenity my journey in adolescence I feel like once before a child of eight I dreamt of terrible marvelous skates weaving simplicity complexity in outer space rocket ships realities traced now to spines of crates drowning to the lid, lost salty straits yet what is once will never begin again look at me now, eight I live to see light of day and end with kissing white ***** of those medallion ivory gates filthy green dollars as they clip my windpipes to hush our voices gone hoarse in constant delay smothered so we stray breathless, worthless in constant replay a desolate lampshade shattered shards of what remained of eight year old dreams a second chance too late a second path too vain my liberty to express those wooden crates, open passionately constantly drift astray in those seas of dismay have no fear for me the stars will now guide me the way it's going to be okay, my precious eight