See it but never feel it. Get close, only to push it away. “Don’t know what you’ve got til it’s gone” Epitome of my life. What is wrong with me? What makes me so un-lovable? Can someone remove this defective sign from my forehead, And replace it with a kiss. I want more than mediocre. I want someone to miss. Do I ask for too much? Are my requirements unachievable? My heart remains unconquered, unattained. I’m tired of fairy tale endings, Silly thoughts put in my head by unrealistic, but hopelessly believable movies. They are all the same. Girl meets boy. Girl messes it up. Boy forgives girl. Happily Ever After. At least they let on that relationships have problems. I want raw, unrelenting love. The real deal. No movie, novel, or episode of “*** and the City” could ever touch. Left alone, drowning in thoughts, Who else in the world could need love, Like I need love?