I still don't want to be here
I still want to **** myself
you're not here
you promised you'd be here forever
you left
with no explanation
and you lied  
I knew you like the back of my hand
now I can't look at you
I'm scared of you
I feel like you're something different
you're probably not
you're probably happy
that's so good
it hurts
you were my best friend
so easily you were gone
but it's not my fault
you left me
I can't be sad
or feel sorry for being happy
if you're sad that's not my fault
breaking yourself in the process
of breaking me
that's not my fault