my head rests on an open blank notebook the words of my “teacher” leak thru my ears how many days has it been since I was last here? I know I’ll be failing this year the numbers don’t lie right? so why should I write down the calculations that will do me no good? these words and letters drift thru my mind like feathers its not that I don’t want to learn it’s that I don’t have the motivation you see. I have this notion that everything I’m doing here like the end of my pencil will be pointless