I will always love you
Even when the day comes that I am clad in black for you
Somberly shuffling through the aisles to a funeral march
Trying to find an empty church pew
So I can cry to a god that I don’t believe in
Because they are all I have left
Imaginary friends
Because you left before you taught me how to be okay
I cant hear the way your voice sounds anymore
I can’t see the way your hair curled around your cheek
Or your crooked smile when you laughed too hard
I am losing you for a second time
So now I am screaming in my car alone at 3 am
Do you want roses or lilies
Do you want roses or lilies
Do you want roses or lilies
Maybe I will lay thistles on your grave instead
Because your love was the most beautiful thing I ever held
But it raked through my skin to my bones
It tore out my heart with its barbed wire words
The spines stabbing into my veins pumping in broken promises
Baby, Id rather be doing ****** again
Because at least when you overdose you actually die
But with you darling
You left me dancing in a permanent coma
You will never let me give up
You rip me back into consciousness the second I start to let go
Lacing my blood with another empty I love you
That curls into my skin like mercury
Or like lilies
Dependent on how dependent I am on you this relapse.
My words falling like knives
I can never manage to land on