i've never done this before.

i've never admitted to myself that i need someone
and i have never felt so pathetic because of it.


but holy ****, i need you.


i need you like i  need air to survive


frankly, i was dead from lack of breathing before i met you


i'm so scared that these weeks will turn into months without you
and i'll cease to breathe
again.


*******.
how dare you
make me fall in love with you
i want to scream into your chest and pull out your hair

and then cry

i've never cried this much

i want to push you off a tall building
so my heart will stop feeling

so sad
all the ******* time