I'm slowly killing myself and I'm screaming out and nobody hears... I'm always surrounded by the people who "love" me but not by the ones who loved me first and it's killing me. I literally feel my chest compress against my shirt, the shirt I wear oh so baggy to try and escape my chest from pressing against it so that my heart is even more compressed... I try and try but I can't get out of this thing they call being depressed. It isn't depression it's a mental suicide...